12/12/19
As I start writing I am sitting in a plane, having as destination Los Angeles. This is were the adventure of my inspiration begins. Inspired already by everything, the need of taking pictures of my surroundings to analyze them afterwards, comes as a flashlight.
From zooming into the change of the raindrops stick on the window as we start flying to a larger shot of how we escape each other by staying so focused on screens in front of us. The light, the atmosphere, the noice, everything is a start. Planes make calm me down. I am used to them because of all the travels my mom needed to do during my childhood. The seconds were we leave the ground are always my favorite ones. This time I felt relieved. Relieved leaving the ground of The United Kingdom, to welcome a knew one in approximately 11 hours from know.
It will be my first time in the state of California and i am overexcited.
After reading the Brief giving to us for our Christmas break, i was even more excited for all the research I could make around this trip. Because of the American culture having so much to do with the history of denim and the use of it in the jeans. But most importantly, i needed this trip to change air. This past months since the start of foundation were the first of living by myself. Here in a country where I arrived as a stranger. But threw time I am feeling more and more attached and part of it. There is a lot of new information to absorb, discovering many new places and people so different, in such a small amount of time. It is an overwhelming and deeply inspiring period. Every thing I knew and was familiar to me is replaced by first times experiences. I have missed my family a lot, by family I mostly mean in it my mother. Because of all the city I have lived in, I always adapted to them and each time we builded a knew home with her. She is my home. And feel the safest when I am next to her. That’s why I a feeling at home in this plane, and will also feel home because she is
It is so special to me how much I opened ,connected with the others visions and worlds, with the outside and at the same time how close I came to the inside of me.
i started thinking of who I am right now? In what stage of my life am I ? How would I define myself to the exterior world ?
Well right now I am just an other of the passenger among a airplane flying over the U.S, in order to spend two weeks of dissevering, relaxation, fun and family time.
I really started living during these months only for foundation, all my thoughts are always turning around my projects themes. As for my digital anylyse, I have noticed I spent less time on the phone and also on social media.
Instagram is one of my favorite and least favorites application the phone. I use it and admire it for the way of connecting me and my images to the others and how it allows you to create your own world and gives you a freedom to represent yourself. You learn so much about someone by looking at his instagram. What hobby he has, probably his gender, his taste in fashion, who are his friends, his interests, where he travels, his food diet...
When I think about the percentage of what I do if is use it, it is briefly : 60 % using internet searching about my work and use of social media ( mainly Instagram), 20% listening to music , 10% taking pictures and the other 10% to communicate. But I often just use it for music.
After having my progress with Alice I thought a lot about what I needed to improve. She gave me the advice to free myself much more and not to be afraid to do so much mistakes. I already knew before that I was quiet perfectionists and that I will always think a lot about how I present my work and how the colors match, the composition, the shapes.... Because I am a very aesthetic person and I love beauty. I love perfection but in the way I also know that imperfection is beautiful. So I started looking at how I was acting on my digital life and I saw the same way of me trying to put everything in order and make everything look perfect.
So I asked a few people and close friends to tell me what they thought about my Instagram , which is the main social media I use, and they said you can see that I’m very organized in a tasteful way. I noticed that evenI noticed that even on my screen the applications are old is by color the music I listen to Is ordered in different playlist depending on the color of the album so this fake sample is the pink playlist :
Music has become such an important factor in my life. And I realized that I am addicted to it. I always need to listen to music wile walking on the street. When I forget my earphones, It feels automatically strange. But really strange. I become bored from the everyday day noises. And at home I always need to put music so I have something to listen to in the background. It adds a life to my flat, and fills a lack of presence. Silence scares a lot of us. We try to escape it as much as possible. I am scared of silence, but definitely not of being alone. I enjoy a lot my own presence and prefer it sometimes to others.
Thats why decide not to take my earphones with me during this trip, so I can also make a music detox. To see how I respond to normal sounds.
15/12
To start this project I decided to re-work on the deconstruction theme and use different kind of jeans or different shades to adapt myself with them by deconstructing them to an environment. I really wanted to put myself out there see where my limits are feel how it is when people stare you and you become ridiculous. I was interested in I would be perceived and started to behave as a new character I put myself into the role of this woman completely dressed with jeans that is ripped out of her hair and goes into a $.99 store just to see all the different things she could bye it has to do with someone can’t afford expensive clothes. And as denim is one of the cheapest fabrics you could have and buy you can find it anywhere and I wanted to put it over there and walk over the streets and become this new character. for the following days I will choose different spots in Los Angeles and adapt myself to environment and adapt the jeans and the denim to the environment make it something very chic transform it into something very brutal and from one end to the other from one extreme to the other I will try to transform this fabric this material that is already so much defined and has so much history I would like to transform it and make it in something new.
16/12
The next destination I decided to choose for my construction part of the project was the Venice Beach. For it’s rich culture of muscle training people, surfers, skateboarders that are related to the use of denim. We went there in the morning quite early around 10 o’clock and started running and at first it was only on the beach were we could see surfers catching waves in the sea. But were I mainly got inspired was afterwords we came back on the main avenue, where most of the shops consisted of crazy touristic T-shirts with logos of Venice Beach, cannabis and skateboards. All the people walking on the Avenue was so intriguing and inspiring.
But were I decided to work was next to the skate board park.
What I enjoyed discovering was that where all different kinds of people trying out their skills in all of these massive holes : there all different ages. Kids , older man, younger teenager trying their skills out. And then there was even me doing my fashion project. This time again the only thing I had with me was a bag field with some deconstructed jeans ,the same ones I had for the last outfit. I sat next to the place and did working the new outfit in five minutes and then shoot it. My aim by doing adapt myself, the jeans and the denim to an environment.
We ended the trip by driving four hours fromFrom Las Vegas to hear the monkey with the resort we crossed several states from Nevada to Arizona and finally arriving at Utah. From all the Destiination we have been this is by far my favorite one there’s something very magical about the place we spent three days we were completely lost in the deserts surrounded by these enormous rocks mountains that have this light brownish red color from the iron that they have in them from the ground that you could feel so of energy coming up very old energy because we are in a territory that belongs to Native Americans the resort was very luxurious very and calming. It gave me more strength for my projects and in this place I decided to do my 24 hours digital detox. I decided to do it for the day of Christmas because it is a day of celebration to be alive and it was the perfect timing because that day was very special and through the day I did meditation went on the hike saw a really beautiful cave that reminded me of the birth of Jesus Christ. And in the afternoon I was so productive I think it was the most productive day of my whole traveling and I thought there’s really something about the digital word affecting the mind when you spend time on it in the morning you are less productive in the afternoon and you create less because you have already worked so much information in your brain of all the images you see. Even just using the application of pictures already doesn’t give you the ability to use afterwords your brain and extract the right things because there’s something about the natural way of memorizing places and oh so memorizing things . Pictures give us the ability to memorize more than we actually do but by doing this we don’t focus anymore or we don’t work everything we see in the same way. When are used application of pictures I usually take loads of pictures one after the other because I always think that each moment something is changing and there will never be a second picture as the other each picture will have a different detail because like time and like things that happen you never get to live the second moment again.
The application of music are use it mostly because music is a get away and makes you feel emotions or even remind you of nice moments where you had the music but when you really want to focus in the present and when there is a place that has a ready so much beauty and emotions and that you don’t feel the need to listen music is there’s a way to distract yourself from silence because most of the humans are afraid of silence and tried to flee it.
The last outfits that I created here were inspired by what our experience in Las Vegas and oh so combined to something very peaceful and calm here that permitted me to extract those emotions and create material governments out of the ideas .
The shapes I create around my body and all of the outfits I made during this trips are diverse because there was so many things to capture to see to feel and to reproduce afterwords but I think that each one of them could become one because of the same feeling in the base they have.I think that I have still to learn a lot about the way I do use my work and the way I create but this travel has been a step forward them to open myself up and experiment new things I have put myself in situations and I wouldn’t have last year or the year before and the progress idea each week is enormous when I compared from the progress I did years before. I think I react quicker to elements that surround me and find me inspiration I don’t limit myself anymore that much but I always of course try to to put a certain aesthetic in my work which sucks sometimes is too much presence in it I need to learn to do more mistakes as I repeat myself because after my progress to cheerio I realized I really do Think a lot about the composite shit in my work and that limits my productivity it’s a journey and I think I have experienced such already fulfilling experience only through four months these four month have been the most intense one of the most intense I would say but oh so I have gained a lot and I feel I have not aged a lot because that sounds bad but and learn to be more mature and try to do my best.